1. Gavin Rossdale

Back when there was BUSH, I already have serious dreams about being with Gavin. I bought their albums (never mind if they sounded like Pearl jam rehashes) and bought the magazines they appear on. Jeez, Gwen is surely one very lucky girl.

GAvin Rossdale during Bush's heyday

2. Jeremy Jordan

No, not the porn actor. Hahahah. Back in the early nineties, he was really big, alongside with then, Beverly Hills 90210. I am really infatuated with him then.

Jeremy Jordan's only album (and yes, I have one)

3. Dennis Trillo

He remains my ultimate crush. I would give anything to meet him. Anything.

Cosmopolitan Magazine's hottest bachelor lister

Jag, I am now free.

I will be happy once more.

Thank you my Felix for making me feel important and loved, but I’m sorry it all had to end. We have been so comfortable with each other but we can never discount our faults. And this time we’re better off apart.

Love sucks.
The other face of love is the part when you end it.

Jag, it was a roller coaster three weeks. And it had to end violently. I am scarred in heart and mind. And the pain stays even after the realization that you are a jerk.

Can’t be helped. I fell. Hard.

Now I am hurting. Genuinely. But life never ends in falling out of love.

Life goes on. And I know things will get better.

And there are SONGS. Songs that matter. Songs that hold special meanings to us. Here are some that summarizes my roller coaster love affairs:

1. On My Mind – New Found Glory

The person dearest to me is always out of touch. We don’t get to see each other regularly. And when we do get to be together, time always seem so short.

Live from MTV

2. Forever – Papa Roach

You know how it feels when you loved, get hurt but still love the person anyway. Hurt and longing summed in one song.

Official Music Video

3. Crazy For You – Madonna

Now who doesn’t like this song. Memories of puppy love and crushes go through m mid with this song. Trivia: This song doesn’t appear on any Madonna album, except on her Greatest Hits series (Immaculate Collection and Something to Remember). This song is actually part of the movie “Vision Quest” (1985).

Music Video

4. If – Janet Jackson

Who said love songs had to be ballads. Actually, this song is about what if, I was your lover? You know the things that I could do may be better?

Music Video

5. Love at First Sight – Kylie Minogue

Juvenile. But we do have our “love at first sights” right?

Music Video

To be continued…

1. Friends call me Xonny or Kutz.

2. I am terribly nearsighted. My glasses measure 475 and my contacts are 450. For the past ten years, my eyesight had not deteriorated. (yay!)

3. I have crooked teeth. That’s why I don’t smile at photos real often. But I laugh real hard. )

4. I’m a sucker for love. My heart has been broken, mended and broken again several times that I have lost count.

5. I’m a big music lover. But I don’t go for pop much. I have rare recordings of Squirrel Nut Zippers and early albums of Van Halen and Journey. I’m a New Wave child.

6. I have this infatuation with Coco Martin. So, if anyone knows him, please introduce me to him. Please?

7. I am terrified of large statues, especially that large lion’s head en route to Baguio. Creepy, man.

8. I’m lactose intolerant. The last time I drank milk I nearly perforated my ass (eww).

9. I have two big dreams: to have my short story published (“Between”; what is it about is worth another entry) and have a disco album of my own.

10. I’m a loner. But I would love to be alone with someone I love.

Every now and then, I may supply you with ten things about me more…

Thanks for the time.